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My husbands checking account has been hit by a scam.

$149.00 debited from his account (that had no money in it because we have been using the joint account)$60.00 in overdraft fees. Hopefully we won't end up having to pay it but, good grief I can't deal with much more!

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My mother has been in the hospital for the past week. She had been falling and having difficulty walking so I took her to the doctor. They ran various tests and said her brain was fine and her heart was fine. She has severe osteoporosis and muscle deterioration. She also has a couple of cracked ribs and compressed vertebrae in her back from the falling. The doctor recommended inpatient physical therapy to build her back up to a functional level. Unfortunately, over the past few days she has become very incoherent and confused. She is not on any medication that would cause her to be this way, so I have no idea what is going on. She keeps fighting me and trying to get me to take her home, which is impossible. She tries to run off from the hospital. They had to put an alarm on her bed and a tracking bracelet on her leg. I don't know what I'm going to do. Her doctor won't return my phone calls and I can never catch him on his rounds. I am going to talk to him today, somehow! I have to deal with this totally on my own. She has no friends and her only remaining (capable) family members are my aunt and uncle who live 2 states away. My uncle has been a lot of help (not) he keeps calling me saying I should do this or that. He called yesterday and said if she isn't better by mid-week I need to take her to an out of town hospital. Well it's easy for him to say that!! I have to work (in fact, I was planning on getting another job before this happened) and take care of my own household. How can I do that and take care of her if she's in a hospital that's 50 miles away??? Right now, I'm just at a loss and I REALLY need to get some answers from her doctor about this sudden dementia. So, I'm off to the hospital & hopefully, I will get things figured out. *sigh* Don't I ever have anything pleasant to write about??
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stressed stressed
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It's been WAY too long since I've posted. It's just been crazy busy for me lately and I haven't had enough energy to write anything worthwhile. saltygoodness, I really enjoyed reading about your comic con trip :) Can't wait for the new season of BSG to start. Things have been going o.k. for me, aside from the nerves caused by constant running and doing. The heat and the economy have me a bit grumpy. Husband and I are doing pretty well. Had a big altercation with my daughter, because she didn't get to go to Warp tour. Still helping mom a lot.

So that's the gist of it :P I hope to get back to writing more soon.
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tired tired
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My husband and I are both on vacation this week. There is a reason I generally do not take time off work, everything goes wrong when I do and instead of a nice time off I end up disappointed and frustrated. This time is no exception. To start things off we had a bad gas leak in the back yard (lucky we didn't blow up). Took us a day and a half to get that fixed and took all the money we had (which wasn't a lot) for fun. We had planned to do some motorcycle riding, but it's leaking oil and must be fixed first. Misplaced the bank card yesterday and spent hours looking for it (thankfully, we finally found it). Mother has been calling on me constantly and she wants me to take her to Owensboro to buy shoes one day this week. That will be an all day ordeal. Good grief, I might as well be at work (at least I'd be earning some money).
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frustrated frustrated
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Spent almost all day Sunday moving my husband back in. He did most of the packing, carrying etc... My husband's brother, a friend and I helped, but only with the really heavy stuff that he couldn't possibly get on his own. Mostly,we just followed him around taunting him, which was fun. It was a lot of work. He was exhausted,working his a** off and we gave him a rough time, but he took everything we dished out with a sense of humor and didn't ask for help. He faced some of his consequences and fully accepted that he deserved it. That's a really good sign.
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hopeful hopeful
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My daughter is very happy that her dad is moving back (which is amazing and surprising). I hope things go as well as we are all hoping. I'm sure there will be plenty of bumps and issues to deal with, but we are all planning to make our best effort.
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rushed rushed
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So, my husband is moving back in this weekend. Guess we'll soon find out how well that's going to work out. So far things are looking pretty good, but I'm being cautious and waiting to see how things are once we are actually living together again. Sigh, this has been a long couple of months. I'm ready for a little peace and happiness.

But....

I still have my mother to contend with. I'm going tomorrow to see about getting someone to help me look after her and I'm going to take her back to the doctor next week. Hopefully, we can get her straightened out soon.

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tired tired
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Seems my journal entries are becoming few and far between. It's not that I don't want to write. It's just that my thoughts and feelings are so erratic that they have become very difficult to put into words. I get on here everyday intending to post, but I just end up reading my friends journals then sitting at staring at my blank entry box for a while and giving up. I am letting things overwhelm me. I think I have gone into automatic system shutdown (circuits overloaded, alarms going off, system will shut down in 5...4....3...). If ever there was a time I should be writing, this is it. So...I'm just going to unleash some random thoughts and try to regain stability :)

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Saw this on ohbejuan's journal and thought it was nifty :)

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contemplative contemplative
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After almost 2 months of trying to absorb and accept what has happened in my life, yesterday evening my husband tells me he wants to come back. Now, I'm faced with a whole new set of thoughts, questions and feelings. I read a bunch of stuff about the "midlife crisis" online last night and I'm sure that is what happened with him (it's almost my story word for word), but I'm still not sure where that leaves me.
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confused confused
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